This is what I woke up to!
I swear I did not copy this off the Internet. I actually took this picture!
The Apache Campground has Sunday church services up on the pier…so I woke up early and went to church. It was beautiful. It was warm, sunny, and I could hear the waves rolling in to beautiful music. The sermon was powerful. The Chaplin, Richard Jenkins spoke about how we go about our lives stuck in a routine…and how so many of us live like robots. We miss so much of life when we get stuck in this rut. He spoke about asking God to show us how to LIVE a meaningful life. His sermon really rang true. For 30 years I was stuck with the damaging effects of sexual abuse…I was numb inside. I walked around like a programmed machine. I suppose it was part of some kind of defense mechanism.
Everything changed for me when I realized that I did not want to live this way anymore. I was tired of this lifeless mechanized existence. I realized that there was a LIFE out there for me…if I could find the courage to fight for it. It took me 30 years but I’m here now. LIVING.